Up Until Now

145F47B7-AD82-4284-AD28-7B1F1C3F5147The world has gone mad. I will not mention anything to cause an uproar in my blog, you watch and hear the news, probably more than I do. Since March, I had a couple of weeks in the beginning that caused some panic within me, but I worked through them.

Thankfully, I had a counselor to teach me how to breathe, pay attention to my breaths. Once I was in my counselor’s office years ago and apparently we were discussing something deep, as I took my right hand and was tapping my collar bone. Until she asked what I was doing, I responded with just tapping. My goodness, that is a thing and I did not even know it. Well, after research since then and understanding this tapping, which is Emotional Freedom Technique and EFT, it actually helped me and I still use on occasion. Then the essential oils used through these panic attacks, was helpful.  Anyway, that was my go-to when life as we all knew it, came to a standstill.  https://www.thetappingsolution.com/

Perhaps I need to start my whole regimen yet again or just put blinders on and live in denial. At times it would be easier to stick my head in the sand.

As I skimmed through some posts on Facebook while in a slow period at work, how can you not cry, pray and want to run away. Run away? Run away, but where to?

The only hope I have is to depend upon the Lord with everything within me, not just for my four and no more but for my family and friends. Our hope is in the Lord, more than ever. Hopefully, your is, too!

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“God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.”  Psalm 46:1  

“When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.” Psalm 56:3

 

Distant

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Where are you? I don’t see you. I don’t know where you are. I haven’t heard from you.

With this pandemic right now, I feel as though I live in a bubble. If I allow myself to panic, it seems there is no way out. I can look out but I see no one. I don’t even see you looking for me. Are you there? Do you even care?044671DC-A646-4620-8A59-8D3487485BD6

Each day the bubble gets larger, I get lost in the space, and I feel farther away. Where are you? I’m here. Questioning 1402DBE8-7C50-422C-8173-8763659B6DF8if I should even be breathing this air.

How sad it is that the distancing is causing such a fear to be near one another. Guessing and taking a chance to go here or there, just for the essentials. If you are in your own home with your spouse, you have one another, or do you? You could be just as alone. If the children and grandchildren are out there at a distance following the rules, your hearts desire is to pull them in for a long embrace to say, I so miss you!E4B99A79-64CB-47E5-B415-A95773329B34

The masks we are now to wear, will only that much more cause such a sad, sterile look with a lack of emotion or hide a beautiful smile. Will things ever be the same? If not, what changes are ahead. The eyes will tell if one is happy or sad perhaps or that they feel dead inside.

I don’t know what tomorrow holds and neither do you, but we must hold onto hope in order to survive. We can see the good or we can see the bad, as we take each day because that is all we have.D3F0FF87-41EE-4CDB-ACEF-A66FBE0B7A5B

We will get through this, we will get through this together.

Stay Well 😷

 

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