Distant

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Where are you? I don’t see you. I don’t know where you are. I haven’t heard from you.

With this pandemic right now, I feel as though I live in a bubble. If I allow myself to panic, it seems there is no way out. I can look out but I see no one. I don’t even see you looking for me. Are you there? Do you even care?044671DC-A646-4620-8A59-8D3487485BD6

Each day the bubble gets larger, I get lost in the space, and I feel farther away. Where are you? I’m here. Questioning 1402DBE8-7C50-422C-8173-8763659B6DF8if I should even be breathing this air.

How sad it is that the distancing is causing such a fear to be near one another. Guessing and taking a chance to go here or there, just for the essentials. If you are in your own home with your spouse, you have one another, or do you? You could be just as alone. If the children and grandchildren are out there at a distance following the rules, your hearts desire is to pull them in for a long embrace to say, I so miss you!E4B99A79-64CB-47E5-B415-A95773329B34

The masks we are now to wear, will only that much more cause such a sad, sterile look with a lack of emotion or hide a beautiful smile. Will things ever be the same? If not, what changes are ahead. The eyes will tell if one is happy or sad perhaps or that they feel dead inside.

I don’t know what tomorrow holds and neither do you, but we must hold onto hope in order to survive. We can see the good or we can see the bad, as we take each day because that is all we have.D3F0FF87-41EE-4CDB-ACEF-A66FBE0B7A5B

We will get through this, we will get through this together.

Stay Well 😷

 

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I Hope You Hope

F799226C-5CE8-4D64-A072-9DDE5E188627Hope is a choice of courage. ~Terri Guillemets

As I sat down and held our old, heavyset cat, we both fell asleep. Easy to do for both of us.  Now, if the cat was writing this, she would write as I was held by my old, heavyset human mom we both fell asleep.7AF681FF-95B3-48CE-9E00-B274FA3030B1

Can you tell that this quarantine is starting to get to me? My days and hours are all messed up, the cats are messed up, they are as confused as I am.

As I was slowly waking up, at 3 am yet again, I was thinking and a lot of my thoughts were, I hope this or I hope that. Just thankful I had hope.

4B9726C2-16AC-41EA-8604-B2DAC95F1E21I hope this period that we are all experiencing, not just in our town or state but worldwide will end soon. I am sure you hope that, too.

I hope that my son is doing okay, as I feel he doesn’t tell me everything and I understand, as I do remember being young. When I called him, as a text message was not enough, I said several times I was not convinced he was okay. A week or two ago, he was not sure this COVID19 was for real. It is. Now pretty well stuck at his home as we all are, he has to manage and I cannot do it for him. So I do hope and pray that he is really okay, as he says he is. I must trust and put my faith in the Lord to help him, care for him and love him. Being a mom is hard, even as our children get older.F080EDCF-7E63-45A0-A26E-B5338A8500C4

I hope that one day I will see so and so.  I hope that one day or soon I will hear from certain ones, as I feel it is out of place to contact them. I wait and see and I hope.

I hope that through all of this we are all experiencing that we each will see life differently and be more appreciative of everyone that is in our lives and just how blessed we really are.

I hope for so many things. I hope I will be a better person, mother, sister, friend, mother/daughter-in-law and most of all, a stronger Christian. I hope I can toss away the intimidation and fear in life, in my praise and worship and not care what others think of me. I don’t want to be the same person that I was. Perhaps this is an awakening for each of us.

749799C1-B069-4FDF-A295-E9A23872970BOn a lighter note, I hope that I can make my hair look nice and not try cutting it myself. No doubt many are stressing, as I am. We will all have new hairdos.  We just might like this change, but I don’t have much hope in that, for me.

I do have hope for each of us. As we go forward through days of uncertainty and distancing, I pray that you also have HOPE.

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Hope is an optimistic state of mind that is based on an expectation of positive outcomes with respect to events and circumstances in one’s life or the world at large. As a verb, its definitions include: “expect with confidence” and “to cherish a desire with anticipation.”

https://lifehopeandtruth.com/bible/bible-study/encouraging-bible-verses/encouraging-bible-verses-about-hope/