Up Until Now

145F47B7-AD82-4284-AD28-7B1F1C3F5147The world has gone mad. I will not mention anything to cause an uproar in my blog, you watch and hear the news, probably more than I do. Since March, I had a couple of weeks in the beginning that caused some panic within me, but I worked through them.

Thankfully, I had a counselor to teach me how to breathe, pay attention to my breaths. Once I was in my counselor’s office years ago and apparently we were discussing something deep, as I took my right hand and was tapping my collar bone. Until she asked what I was doing, I responded with just tapping. My goodness, that is a thing and I did not even know it. Well, after research since then and understanding this tapping, which is Emotional Freedom Technique and EFT, it actually helped me and I still use on occasion. Then the essential oils used through these panic attacks, was helpful.  Anyway, that was my go-to when life as we all knew it, came to a standstill.  https://www.thetappingsolution.com/

Perhaps I need to start my whole regimen yet again or just put blinders on and live in denial. At times it would be easier to stick my head in the sand.

As I skimmed through some posts on Facebook while in a slow period at work, how can you not cry, pray and want to run away. Run away? Run away, but where to?

The only hope I have is to depend upon the Lord with everything within me, not just for my four and no more but for my family and friends. Our hope is in the Lord, more than ever. Hopefully, your is, too!


“God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.”  Psalm 46:1  

“When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.” Psalm 56:3


Time Flies

4C6249DE-08C3-4EBE-BB38-B22FD92418AEToday is my oldest son’s birthday and he is twenty-nine years old. To those of you who are a mother, no doubt you probably re-live the day you had your child(ren). I tend to go down memory lane each and every year and today is no different.

This morning as I was getting ready to leave the house at 5:45 am to go walk, I thought back of that time twenty-nine years ago. I was just rushed in for an emergency c-section and there was activity all around me but soon a baby boy was in my arms. He was perfect.820A2C9E-E33D-432E-A1C0-2D1A5C6911AC

His birth, making me a first-time mom was life-changing. My faith in the Lord grew, as I admired this little baby, that belongs to me, and I remember saying, ‘how can people not believe in God.’

A profound love was felt deep within me that I never knew existed and this love will never end but will continue to grow stronger.

Happy Birthday Son! Mom ❤️