Faith – Page 70 – Just Pondering…

Gently Woven

March 16, 2019ponderingmissylouLeave a comment

4156B4E3-9EAE-4A84-BFA9-DE9EAD041FD3 There have been times in life, I have wanted to forget something that I did or happened because the thought either brought torment, insecurity, embarrassment, etc. No doubt, you also. Things happen in life.

Plus, there have been times I have wanted to forget somebody or several due to being hurt, etc. The pain of remembering either/or was too great.

Giving thought to how to forget, I found myself Googling just that. Believe it or not, Google comes through yet again.

As I read the information and the six to ten steps on how to forget someone, etc., I had to laugh at some and come to the realization that no matter what you do in following the steps and recommendations, you can truly not forget. Our brain is so complex that a scent, sight or memory will be triggered.

06AB7B8F-F83B-4FF0-91BA-26F25A57817B Although the pain, as in my instance recently, I would like to forget in order to ease the pain, but in all honesty, I really do not want to forget. I just want to get through the pain and I will. Plus, I know that their life is woven into mine and always will be, and mine in theirs.

770B8D89-A272-41BF-B607-CF77AB91ED78 So many facets of my life are connected that I do not want to forget how they all came about. To toss them aside, to delete and block out all of the resources received, learned and love shown, it would be impossible. My life has been and was touched.

Given thought to another, someone that caused me great pain and years to require forgiveness and come to terms with the hatred they have toward me, still they are woven in my life and I am theirs, whether they like it or not. They can try to shut me out of their lives but family is family and the blood is there. Still woven, just not so tightly.

Believe it or not, your reading this, we are woven together. There might be something down the road that will bring this to your remembrance by being with someone. You have touched a life of someone or they have touched yours. Woven.

No matter how or whom we come in contact with, we are gently woven with one another. It’s pretty awesome to think of how we can or others affect one another. Perhaps just a kind gesture or even a brief smile that made your day or a touch of somebody’s hand on your arm to encourage.

In life, we are woven to care and show God’s Love.

Give Me Wings

March 13, 2019ponderingmissylouLeave a comment

I wish I had wings like a dove.

I would fly away and find rest.

Psalm 55:6

Good News Translation

Ever feel that way? Sure you have.

Thinking back, I remember when my father was alive and had a feeding tube. I had to go to his home four times a day, starting at 5:30 a.m. At that time, I had two active boys under the age of six, at times worked at the church, and watched other children in my home, not to mention the other things that came caring for a home/family. I was exhausted.

Walking up to my Dad’s home, about two blocks away, I often looked up at the dark, clear sky seeing all the stars and would say, if I could just fly away. Thankfully, buying the house several years before, was a definite God thing because I could not have done this otherwise; to care for him daily, his home and my own. As tiring as it was, I have no regrets taking care of him, just wish I had more time.

On top of all of this, dealing with grief from my mother’s recent death, my marriage was dying. I knew it deep within but had to function as best as I could in the roles before me.

Each day turned into the next and you just make the most of it, I know I did or I at least tried. It wasn’t long until my father died and then the estate and sure enough family issues. There is always somebody that causes discord within the family and this in-law did just that to cause division. Does it ever end?

Even today, thinking back of everything that I endured, I really do not know how I did it. But God….. He saw me. He heard me. He collected my tears. He had heard all the nasty lies about me. If it had not been for Him, I would not be here today. It took its toll on me and family issues with estates are pure hell.

oday, as I do my job and watch the clock ready to leave the office, I am tired and ready for a vacation, which is only six weeks away. I am so ready. I found myself saying, if only I was a bird, I’d fly away, which brought back years of memories.

Sometimes life can get overwhelming in so many areas to where you’ve had enough. It’s at those times, you pray that the Lord uphold you with His right hand. Cover you with His wings and shelter you and give you peace.

Trust Him

Winds Are Blowing

March 12, 2019March 10, 2019ponderingmissylouLeave a comment

FB12F8C0-B7F0-4FA7-83ED-75D40CD61625 As I listen to the winds blow outside for hours now, hearing creaks in this old house of mine, the clanging of my wind chimes, I am reminded of the winds that blow in our own lives. With wind, there is no control, it’s going to blow and with each burst, in hopes the structures are able to sustain the force.

Many times through such storms, I have curled up in my chair listening to the force outside or feeling the force within me, wondering if either can stand through it all. So many times I have thought or said, ‘Lord, calm the storm’ or ‘Peace. Be still.’

Amazingly enough, we are stronger than we think we are. Even if my house falls in the midst of the winds of the storm, He will be with me to rebuild.

It comes down to, for me anyway, that He will help me no matter what circumstances are before me. I have to trust and have faith in that and mostly in Him. I may struggle to get there for a bit… but I do. As in most struggles and trials in life, the worst is when alone, at the midnight hour.

Lord, calm the chaotic winds within and around my very being so I can be a testimony of your faithfulness.

If you are facing storms in your own life, Trust Him. Easier said than done, I know, but He is our peace.

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