As I listen to the winds blow outside for hours now, hearing creaks in this old house of mine, the clanging of my wind chimes, I am reminded of the winds that blow in our own lives. With wind, there is no control, it’s going to blow and with each burst, in hopes the structures are able to sustain the force.
Many times through such storms, I have curled up in my chair listening to the force outside or feeling the force within me, wondering if either can stand through it all. So many times I have thought or said, ‘Lord, calm the storm’ or ‘Peace. Be still.’
Amazingly enough, we are stronger than we think we are. Even if my house falls in the midst of the winds of the storm, He will be with me to rebuild.
It comes down to, for me anyway, that He will help me no matter what circumstances are before me. I have to trust and have faith in that and mostly in Him. I may struggle to get there for a bit… but I do. As in most struggles and trials in life, the worst is when alone, at the midnight hour. 
Lord, calm the chaotic winds within and around my very being so I can be a testimony of your faithfulness.
If you are facing storms in your own life, Trust Him. Easier said than done, I know, but He is our peace.
I knew one day that this was a possibility but never hoping it would. I had to pick up a prescription on our way and in just that short distance, the emotions within me could not be contained. Basically, a death has occurred in my life. Flip flop from sadness to anger and back again.
What am I doing? It seems like everything is happening all at once and it is putting me to a place out of my comfort zone in many ways. Help me Jesus!
Stepping out and putting my feet in the water is overwhelming but I either go forward or remain stuck. I’m tired of being stuck.
Just Pondering... 