There are times in life that you may not know what to do or to think of a situation, relationship, etc., at hand before you. The questions within seem to linger with no answers. All that you can do is take one day at a time, pay attention and feel the emotions but only on limited time. Don’t let it steal from your day, if that is even possible. It is. Acknowledge, feel and move on. Repeat, as needed. 
We may not understand exactly what we are facing or have dealt with as there are a lot of emotions that are wrapped in the midst, which is normal. It is taking it all to God that will help you get through.
Scripture tells us, “Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight” (Hebrews 4:13, NIV). There isn’t a day or a tear that God doesn’t know about. He sees whatever we’re going though … and He knows.
Expressing what we feel to Him, that can be from joy and our praises but also sadness to anger. Yes, even anger toward Him. One of my biggest faith moments in life, many years ago, was when I screamed out that I was angry with Him. Seriously, He knows anyway. I felt bad for doing that at the time, but I do not regret, as I felt like my level of faith increased.
1 Peter 5:7, “Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.” (NLT)
It is not always easy but as you know, time takes care of a lot of issues. As we recognize and come to terms with it all, of what we are dealing with, understand ourselves plus see the Hand of God at work in the midst, joy will return. He knows. He cares.
Our heart may feel the pain and our emotions cause havoc but if we put our trust in Him to help us through, He will do just that. Trust Him.
https://proverbs31.org/read/devotions/full-post/2016/09/26/in-case-you-were-wondering-god-knows
I admit, I am angry over an situation but more confused, but I know anger is there. What I do know, is that it is not worth me blasting forth with words that will cause damage. I do have a heart and I do care. Once words are released, they cannot be taken back.
As I even write, I could put words of anger that could hurt another but I do not want to do that. Where will that get me? Nowhere but regret doing so. My heart hurts but I know One that knows me better than anybody. I feel the emotions, acknowledge and pray that the Lord will help me through it all. He will.
To write, to be creative, to put my words in front of me, become many but scattered. My creative side is lost in my despair. I have nothing but the chaos of my thoughts that are stored inside me. The ‘why’ covers an array of feelings and the sadness felt. Unsure what to think or to truly feel but trying 
desperately to recognize my emotions. Hurt would be an understatement of the invalidation received.
Knowing and learning from years of counseling, I know to not dwell on the negative thoughts that enter, that get trapped and fight to exit my brain. This would have knocked me down years before and I would have retreated to my bedroom and be covered with depression. While this has been difficult, I will not allow it to drag me down in a pit. I do not understand my ‘why’ questions but I do know, I will not quit. I have come too far and have worked too hard to get to this place in my life.
Just Pondering... 