My heart sinks in despair today, the memories and the loneliness overwhelm my soul. The cloudy, rainy day doesn’t help and everything in front of me to do, I’d rather push away.
The holidays are here but my heart isn’t.
The Christmas tree is up and lit, thankfully a pre-lit tree. I struggle to add the ornaments one at a time.
Family will be here in ten days to celebrate and the desire to clean, decorate, wrap gifts of the ones that I do have remain undone.
I know if I put my heart in all of this, I can whip it out in no time and all will look well. By the time everyone gathers, it will. Where is my get up and go?
Am I dealing with sadness, or is it grief, or the holiday blues, perhaps procrastination at its finest, just no energy within, perhaps it is my age and, of course, is it depression from everything and all? Sadly enough, it’s all of those listed.
No doubt others around you and me feel the same or have at some point in life. Holidays are rough.
My get up and go… is gone. Just for now!
A few more ornaments will be added here and there. A dust rag swipes a table near. The Christmas music, I’ll turn up and hum along. Soon I’ll write out my menu to shop and prepare. The family will come, eat and enjoy. Then everyone will be gone. The holidays will be over once again. The cold dark days of January begin.
Be sensitive to those around you.
We never know what others are going through.
http://blog.naturalhealthyconcepts.com/2013/12/10/holiday-blues/
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