There are some people in our lives that have a way of rubbing us the wrong way. Please tell me that I am not the only one.
While this one person, just today, and in all places, at church felt it was her duty to make a point visually and verbally state that my hair was too short.
Actually, I was having a good hair day, so I thought. Nothing like being put down within five minutes of arriving a church.
The thought of just leaving as that took a bit to counteract the lack of self-confidence that I lack in at times and then to find a mirror or glass to view my head and apparent short hair to her.
I did not leave and continued to work the welcome desk, I pulled my little mirror out and I still thought it look nice.
What would possess her to do this to me? Holding her hand up in a scissor sign although I thought first it was holding her hand up as in a gun up to her head. Then asking her if all was okay and there it was, her comment making sure I knew of her dislike of my hair and the haircut. Stating it was too short for her liking and telling me so yet again. I could have made a comment but I just looked at her and gave her a real big shoulder shrug with facial expression of who cares. I was shocked I did that. 
I went on about my business and enjoyed the church service. Sitting there, I realized she was just a distraction to cause me to dwell on her negative comment. I saw it as it was, just that. I chose to not dwell but consider the source and brush it off. Realizing, consider the source.
Many months ago, we had a situation between us, which could be a whole other writing, but afterward she pulled me to the side to ask for forgiveness and then turned right around and accused me of something out of the blue and definitely incorrect. What? What is this woman’s deal? I realized that day that our ties were to be broken and today was just a reminder.
The old saying that still rings true… if you don’t have anything good to say, don’t say anything at all.
On the flip side, if you see something nice or pretty whether a person, thing, an act of kindness, etc., I encourage you to say so.
People are always open to heartfelt, honest compliments and need them. We all need them.
* Encouragement not Discouragement *
It was just interesting today how I could have dug a hole with her comment, leave church and not hear the sermon, which was awesome and encouraging because of her rude statement.
My counselor would have been so proud of how I bounced back. I was proud of myself.
There are some people that you avoid and sadly some are in the church. I’ve got her number but I will continue to go forward in my worship and serving the Lord and not allow her to be a distraction.
Whether it’s me or it’s you in such a situation, keep your eyes upon the Lord. Beware of the distractions.
He knows, He hears and He sees all.
I’m unsure what lies ahead. Truly, do any of us know? Things in our daily life can change in an instant and our lives disrupted of the boring norm that exists. I know at times life does get monotonous and joy seems so far away, as it happens.
With that, we are not to be jealous of others but that scripture say He is. Isn’t that contradiction? Again, I understand that He Is because He Is and my faith in Him is of utmost importance but my mind has problems unraveling the idea of this jealousy.
As I faced a hurdle just recently, I don’t know what to do or where to go, what steps to take. What I do know is to remain still and allow God to position my steps and my way. This time in waiting is painful and lonely. At times, I feel anger rise up. All of these emotions are normal. With Him, I scream within and aloud, ‘I need You.’
What in the world was I thinking? Discouragement hits an all-time high in my life this week. The negative words within my mind take over as I try to shake them out over and over again but feeling hopeless.
Just Pondering... 