I was recently told by my former counselor that she was just a stepping stone in my journey of healing. So true but so hard to grasp when my heart was breaking reading the truth. Fear of letting go and going forward is scary. 
As I remember my past and each person involved in my life, just like yours, they were each stepping stones to where we are today. Each one, we learn from and grow while in some of those brought hurt and sadness and are stumbling blocks. Either way, through each, they pushed us forward.
I don’t like change and this last stone I was pushed off due to circumstances out of her control, which made me unsteady. Actually, they all do but with most recent ones, the distress is great.
To recognize and accept finally, it makes it easier to understand and go forward. Reminding yourself, you can do this and you do.
No matter of those before, they will always be a part of your life and testimony. I would not be where I am today had it not been for each person that was a stepping stone in my life. For that, I am thankful.
I am stepping onward, sometimes in faith believing, and moving forward. We have to in order to grow and heal.
The Lord has a plan for each of our lives and He will get us to where we need to be. Trust Him as you go about the stepping stones in life.
Today as I go about life on my day off cleaning and doing the mundane things keeping a house, my many breaks tend to leave me researching for whatever is before me. It’s finding out information and learning. Google has become my best friend at times, always there, 24/7.
to my former counselor and to get her perspective but that door has closed. I’m left to search and ponder the unknown until there is an answer or peace in knowing what I think is okay and doing. Time!
Searching. It comes down to and to be reminded that we are to seek God and He will give us truth, answers and faith. He is there 24/7. He wants us to search and know Him.
Here I am alone in my office and no desire to finish my work that can really wait until tomorrow, so I write for a bit. The quietness in the office space far from everyone in the building, hearing the HVAC motors on the roof above me makes me feel as I am on an airplane ready for take off. Anytime now, the flight attendant will be at my door offering up those yummy cookies. Hey, I can dream. Dream to take off in flight to somewhere exciting and yes those cookies. 
Tick tock tick tock, as I have two hours left to maintain this status until I can leave.
Oh Lord, I need you. I need your loving arms to hold me. Only You know me like no other. Give me strength to keep moving forward and be kind to others and to share your love and your mercy and grace. My focus needs to be on you, as you know my name and where I am when I do not even know myself.
Just Pondering... 