Time has passed and I have not talked to you. So many times I think of you and wonder what it is like for you now. What are you doing? How are you? The questions roll over and over, day after day in my mind. You are missed!
While the time has been just a few weeks, it feels like a year. I so miss you and I miss talking to you. Do you ever think of me? Do you ever wonder what it is like for me, what I am doing or how I am?
Grief has a way to digging into our heart and thoughts and feelings of our relationship that is of non-existence, which makes me sad. Time was devoted and now there is none.
My mind can go to the negative quickly, as I am dead to you now, but I choose not to do that. I try anyway. Whether you like it or not, I was a part of your life. Many times I expressed my heart and feelings to you, you know I care. I still do.
I am healing slowly and getting through the raw feelings of being abandoned, yet again. The tears are less and the smiles are upon my face more and I accept a new normal to my usual routine of life.
The void is still present but being filled and I am allowing just that.
Grief, whether in death or in real-life losses, it is still grief.
Take one day at a time. Wipe the tears, cherish the memories and go forward.
You have to!