Little by little the thoughts of you are slipping away unsure if it really matters, as I sometimes wipe my tears away.
You were there but now you are gone, while I do understand life goes on.
The journey of life takes many turns, and I am happy to say that I have learned.
Each day holds something new but my remembrance brings me back to you.
How can I forget what you have done, as it was you that made me to believe in who I am.
So many thoughts and words to say but the way it ended there was no way.
I think you would be proud of me of what I have done, I sometimes wish I could share.
Am I ever a thought in the mind of yours, perhaps wondering if I am doing okay?
I am trying so hard to move on, but I still get hung up with the lack of closure we had.
Thoughts of gratitude most often I have, but still I have bouts of anger that appear.
No matter whether I am a thought or not, I am so thankful from the bottom my heart.
I would not be where I am today had it not been for you, and I know that was all in the Lord’s plan.
So little by little I will go about my days, knowing my questions of why and my hurt will go away.
I wish you well as I try to let go but knowing you will always be a part of my testimony.
I will keep moving forward and enjoy each day, knowing my days ahead will lead to joy.
You may never read this and that is okay, it is just my way of letting go, little by little, day by day.
In my previous writings, I have mentioned my counselor, now former counselor. I had been with her for four years, weekly if not twice, and to count it all up, that is a lot of time together. Besides the Lord, she knew me quite well, more than my family and friends, actually better than I knew myself. The closing of her counseling services was like a death to me, so I still grieve. No matter, I am always thankful for her.
Just Pondering... 